WRITINGS
All of my writing projects can be found here. Writing is my hobby, not my job, so all pieces are self-edited and written just for fun! All stories are in English (though sometimes a bit of Dutch is sprinkled in), even ones with Dutch titles. Unless otherwise stated.
Also, I will never use AI to write/edit my work for me!
Standalones
After their fifteenth anniversary, an unnamed narrator wishes to have an average life with his boyfriend: marriage, kids. Unfortunately, that life is impossible for them to achieve.
"It wasn’t like Kasper stopped being enough for him, but a new hole formed nonetheless after their anniversary. He began realizing that some day they would both be dead, and then there would be nothing left as evidence of their love."
Markus van Dijk discovers that his old friend and ex-flatmate, Dante Kuiper, has died. He should have known, the universe had given him signs.
"The thought of death kept him awake that night, and without sleep he could do nothing but think about death. He wondered, and wondered, and wondered: what had Dante done that day?"
A short story about procrastination and writing
"When you get home, you feel like you could write a hundred different stories. All of them good. Your brain is overflowing with ideas. Finally! By the time that you get your shoes off, though, they’ve already disappeared."
TW: mentions of CSA, suicide and physical abuse (the physical abuse is more graphic in one scene).
For years, Luuk kept his trauma to himself. Until he meets Alex at a party and quickly falls in love. They move in together, live a comfortable life. Then, Alex gets depressed and Luuk realizes everything about their life might be shattered if they keep refusing to talk about what matters.
"But, perhaps some day he could talk about them. In his own time, whenever he wanted. In that way, keeping the details inside felt like a good kind of waiting, of the knowledge that if he ever wanted to talk, there would be someone waiting for him, someone who already knew him."
This story does contain sexual scenes.
Ever since he was a teenager, Timo has been obsessed with vampires and the concept of eternal love. He begins to suspect that his partner has turned into one.
"It was easy with those boys and girls, especially with the boys who would go back to their own city hours away. With none of them did he have to think about the next day, let alone forever."
Bathing [2/2]
TW: mentions of child abuse and homophobia, one more graphic scene.
When Adriaan moves back home to Nijmegen after having lived in Cambridge for years, he starts to look back on the live he has lived with Daan.
"Words quickly began to fail him, and I want to go home no longer made sense. He’d never been home, had he? Not in the place where he couldn’t simply be himself, where he couldn’t be honest. His mam always had a way of making him feel embarrassed. He was strangely afraid that she could somehow see that, ever since he reached puberty, he no longer felt at place within his body of wiry limbs and never ending love for the wrong person. Adriaan tried to remember the last time he had felt at home: sixteen, a cigarette between slippery fingers, wet shoulders, cold porcelain, and of course, Daan."
Christmas, 2001. Adriaan moved back home from England three years ago. He hasn't seen his sister in over a decade. All he has are his memories and an old card.
"He should have protected one of the things he loved the most, just so he wouldn’t lose the other one — Madelief, once a baby sleepy in his arms. When she first learned to walk, she took a step towards him."
Soft Bellied Monster [4/?]
TW: This collection focuses on a character with an eating disorder.
It's been a while since Sam came home from the clinic intact, and yet the past continues to haunt Noah.
"For a while, the other man hadn’t been alright, and now it seemed like he was trying really hard to be, or at least to appear like he was. It made Noah nervous, of course he wanted his boyfriend to be happy, but he didn’t want Sam to just be pretending. It wasn’t something they could easily have a conversation about, though. What kind of dickhead would say are you really hungry, do you really want that? Or do you just want me to think that you want it?"
Sam gets sick, Noah can't help but worry that there's something more going on.
"Only one explanation satisfied the knot of worry surrounding his lungs, the worst of them all: a raw throat, an empty stomach even after dinner. Sam, dealing with it all on his own."
When Sam goes to see a movie with his older niece, he doesn't quite care about the plot. All he can think about is the pretty brunet actor, even though he feels like he shouldn't.
"The next morning, he threw the picture out on his way to school. But he knew that he wouldn’t even need it to repeat his actions from the previous night. Removing the physical evidence of his lust wouldn’t stop the monster in his stomach from lighting up again. After all, he had already memorized every bit of the man’s face."
After Sam suffers from a medical emergency, Noah finally sees how dangerous his situation is. Though Sam is unwilling to hear him out.
"He loved Sam, which was why he wanted him taken care of, wanted him to get help, and he had allowed that love to turn into anger once he realized that Sam did not want to do those things to the same extent. He had called Sam selfish. Such things might happen again, slight arguments weren’t abnormal. What will never happen again is him avoiding Sam. What will never happen is him turning his back on the man he loves the most."
Then I Let Him Die [1/2]
Jen's fiancé Viktor goes missing a month before their wedding. These are the moments before and after.
"A great grief formed in his heart, like a black hole swallowing away everything good. In the distance, he could still hear Elena, but he no longer wanted her. He did not need to go to her home. All he needed was Viktor, sleepy in the backseat, complaining about work in the kitchen. His grief for Vik didn’t remain in his heart alone, or his mind, it took place as a tingling in his fingertips, which would never touch the other’s soft skin again. Jens felt it in the dryness of his mouth, which would never again laugh at one of Viktor’s jokes."
Entries
Little writings about personal things & experiences.
Word Prompts
Writings that have nothing to do with each other, inspired by random words.